Anyone who has actually been sad can tell you that there's nothing beautiful or literary or mysterious about depression . Depression is like a heaviness that you can't ever escape . I crushes down on you , making even the smallest things like tying you shoes or chewing on toast seem like a twenty - mile hike uphill . Depression is a part of you ; it's in your bones and blood . If I know anything about it , this is what I know : it's impossible to escape .