Book review - The Edge Of never by J.A Redmerski *SPOILERS*

The Edge of Never - J.A. Redmerski

April 6-28
Twenty-year-old Camryn Bennett had always been one to think out-of-the-box, who knew she wanted something more in life than following the same repetitive patterns and growing old with the same repetitive life story. And she thought that her life was going in the right direction until everything fell apart.

Determined not to dwell on the negative and push forward, Camryn is set to move in with her best friend and plans to start a new job. But after an unexpected night at the hottest club in downtown North Carolina, she makes the ultimate decision to leave the only life she’s ever known, far behind.

With a purse, a cell phone and a small bag with a few necessities, Camryn, with absolutely no direction or purpose boards a Greyhound bus alone and sets out to find herself. What she finds is a guy named Andrew Parrish, someone not so very different from her and who harbors his own dark secrets. But Camryn swore never to let down her walls again. And she vowed never to fall in love.

But with Andrew, Camryn finds herself doing a lot of things she never thought she’d do. He shows her what it’s really like to live out-of-the-box and to give in to her deepest, darkest desires. On their sporadic road-trip he becomes the center of her exciting and daring new life, pulling love and lust and emotion out of her in ways she never imagined possible. But will Andrew’s dark secret push them inseparably together, or tear them completely apart?

Due to sexual content and language, this book is recommended for 17+ – Adult Contemporary Women’s – New Adult Fiction

Review - 20 year old camryn Bennett has been though allot her boyfriend Ian died her other boyfriend cheated on her , her brother is in jail for killing someone in a drunk driving accident and her father cheated on her mother and they got divorced I mean that's allot for one person . So after at bad night at a club where mostly Camry's best friend's boyfriend tries to force himself on her and when Camryn tries to tell Natalie she doesn't believe her so Camryn just gets on a bus and goes . And then this is where me meet Andrew Parish who is my new book boyfriend like oh my god this guy is amazing he sings he has tattoos he plays guitar and abs hahah . Now Andrew is on the bus to see his dying father but when Camryn tells Andrew to lower is his music sparks right away I wanted them to be together I liked them when they were just friends Andrew is so protective of Camryn . They spend all this bus ride getting to know each other but without really giving out anything personal .until Andrew's last ride where I was really sad I was like how are they going to be together now and then this creep in the bathroom almost rapes Camryn and she has a knife and I'm freaking out and then Andrew shows up and beats the crap out of this guy . And then Camryn tells Andrew the truth So Camryn and Andrew go visit his dad which I don't think Andrew could handle then we meet his brothers I kind of found it funny that all of them start with an A Adian Andrew and Asher and Andrew's father asks if she's his Eurydice which is a Greek myth and Andrew has the tattoo and it stops at one place he says if he ever gets married he wants the other half I thought that was adorable so him .Aand Cameryn hit the road and Andrew wants Cameryn to live to really experience life . There were allot of messages in this book that I loved I just want everyone to read this . There were some sexy times in this book and I thought they were nice but Andrew refused to sleep with Cameryn for stupid reason . And Cameryn told Andrew that she doesn't think she really loved Ian that there is a difference with love and being in love and that when she's with him she doesn't think about him anymore and she thanked him for feeling alive for the first time. Yeah this book tore my heart apart but it did make me laugh at times. when Andrew's father died I was sobbing cause they were crying and Andrew wants to leave Cameryn and I'm like Andrew just stop NO WAY he writes her a letter but she's there and he yells at her just tell me how you feel and she did and it was beautiful and then they sleep together . They also preform at bars and it was amazing now when they get to Texas Cameryn is worried that this will be the end but Andrew wants to travel the world together . He introduces her to his mom so sweet and then we find out he has a brain tumor and i'm like NO NO NO he can't die and I'm sobbing and cameryn doesn't know . And then he has a seizure and I'm like oh crap no no no he goes the the hospitable and Asher is there and tells Cameryn about the tumor and he says it doesn't look good and then she calls Natalile to come and she does and he gets the surgery but he falls into a coma and he might not come out and I'm sobbing again and then his mom gives camryn this letter . And it broke me and then it goes to two months later and I was so worried cause she was at a grave but Andrew is okay and she got the tattoo to match his and she's pregnant and he asked her to marry him and oh my god this is amazing this is one of my favorite books ever I'm onto the last one now .
I learned a long time ago that it's my future and my life and I can't make myself live the way someone else wants me to live . page 70

Just that dwelling and is bullshit he says . You dwell on the past , you can't move forward . Spend too much time planning for the future and you just push yourself backwards , or you can stay stagnant in the same place all your life . His eyes lock on mine live in the moment he says as if making a serious point , where everything is just right , take your time and limit your bad memories and you'll get wherever it is your going a lot faster and with less bumps in the road along the way. page 90

“I know you lost your partner in crime, but...I want YOU to be MINE. Maybe WE should travel the world together, Camryn...I know I can't replace your ex--"
"Andrew...it was always you.”

He's gawking at me when I open the door.
Damn girl he says looking me over , what the hell are you trying to do to me ? I look down at myself , still trying to wake up the rest of the way and realize I'm in those tiny cotten white shirts and varsity tee with no bra on underneath. Oh my god , my nipples are like beacons shining through my shirt! I cross my arms over my chest and try not to look him in the eyes when he helps himself the rest of the way inside. I was going to tell you go get dressed , he goes on grinning as he walks into the room carrying his bags and the guitar, but really , you can just go like that if you want . I shake my head , hiding the smile creeping up on my face .

Uh , there is no way -. I notice his grin has changed into something more 'crafty school boy ' and I look down , realizing my arms are no longer covering my nipples poking so proudly through the thin fabric of my shirt . I let out a spat of air and my mouth falls open . Andrew!
He lowers his head with false shame , but it just makes him appear more devious the way he looks back up under hooded eyes at me .
He is so fucking hot...
Hey you're the one who'd rather complain about the ground rules than protect your girls from my eyes- I should warn you they have a mind of their own .
Yeah I bet they aren't the only things on you with a mind of their own.
Page 167

“The Heart always wins out over the mind, The heart, although reckless and suicidal and masochist all on its own, always gets it way. The mind may be what's best, but I don't give a shit what my mind is telling me anymore. Right now, I want to live in the moment.”

“Y’know, I've always hated that expression: Others have it worse than you do; I guess if you want to look at it in a competitive way, sure, give me welfare over blindness any day, but it’s not a fucking competition. Right?”
Is he asking me because he wants to know how I feel, or was that his way of telling me how it is
and hoping I get it?
I just nod.
“Pain is pain, babe.” Every time he calls me ‘babe’ I notice it more than anything else he says.
“Just because one person’s problem is less traumatic than another’s doesn't mean they’re required to hurt less.”